So as you know, anyone who’s subscribed to xanga gets their daily dose of what’s happening on other peoples Xangas through “Your Xanga Subscription Digest” daily. So the other day I got Erikah’s Xanga and her blog touched me because I could relate to it so well, just like I’m sure many of you can. So here I am presenting you all with the amazingly perfectly written blog stolen courtesy of www.xanga.com/erikah
So have a read and prop the above site!
My biggest fear is losing a friend, to love.
no, not me. not me running away with some strange boy and leaving all my friends behind. .. but more the other way round. Perhaps not everyone, but surely there are certain individuals who become so entangled in their relationship that they neglect all other existing things in the world. This is not to say i don't respect relationships, because i do. i'm happy for people because they are happy for themselves, but too too many times have "serious relationships" displaced friendship. i'm sure you all have classic examples for yourself to relate yourselves to..?
I am a fairly sentimental person in that i always reminisce on past close frienships, or relationships, or events, etc.. and..hell, i miss them. Whether they were good experiences or bad, it's so depressing when you reflect on the official ends or gradual fadings of what 'used to be'.. a close friendship. No fights, no disagreements, no hostility... just faded. And that's the worse part of all.
The fact that nothing problematic has actually come in between you and him, or you and her, or you, him, AND her.. to establish an official end. But instead, as they are so completely capitvated by their own other half, they choose to block out the rest of the world.
and you're part of the world.
so that means they choose to block out you too.
I can think of so many example to speak for myself, but it's not neccessary to point out names. They're happy, and i'm glad. but still.. a balance needs to be pulled somewhere. And i'm not prepared to wait until the ruins of a relationship, or for huge "problems" to occur, to be the one to rescue at last resort. i hate being a secondary friend.
yeah, i know, it's very unlike me to speak so..normally on my xanga. so here you witness one of my deeper posts. if you're reading this, and you think this applies to you, (not neccesarily between you and me.. but you and anyone else), then think twice before you begin to isolate yourself from everything and everyone.
that's so selfish.
god damn i miss you people.
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